oh my gosh. looking at my archive, i havent been on tumblr since we began dating. now im back on. it really shows that i go on tumblr when i have nothing else to occupy my mind
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funny that i was dreading summer earlier because i didnt want himto leave.. now im excited as fuck because i want to go through senior year and graduate already. plus: summer is always incredible!
the more you watch it the funnier it gets lol
just dont watch it too much… then it stops getting so funny
I feel so… neglecting towards my tumblr who was always my friend. then i got a boyfriend and experienced love and a different kind of happiness and of course sex. now that we are no longer together, i feel so different. I’ve always been an independent girl and able to handle myself but now without you.. there’s no one to kiss or look into their eyes and just feel so happy. feeling happy when they are laying on your lap while you run your fingers through their hair. those faces that only you know..
now i dont see any of those things anymore. I don’t have the boy who once made my world spin so quickly; no boy to pick me up to go somewhere because were bored; no one to text me every morning wishing me a good morning, or every night wishing me a good night. so my cognition now is.. if those things were everything that made me happy for so long, those things were what made me happy 2 days ago, how am I going to get used to not having them around? i lose that feeling of love, which everyone needs. I especially think love is the most magical thing in the world. I hope i am right.
now it’s time to appreciate what I had then and move on now. I have to use that experience to my advantage; i dont know how but i will. Don’t cry because it’s over, smiled because it happened…as the phrase goes. It’s true though, not many people are as lucky as me to have someone that wonderful to them so early in life. I hope I still will be one of the lucky ones who will find their other half, their true love who is meant to be.
So I will live life like all other single bitches: get fucked up and have the time of my life! (just in the mean time until i enjoy my next love, in which will i also have the time of my life)
